Conscience, The Interior Sinai
Conscience is an interior government, exercising the
same functions as all human government: namely, legislative, executive
and judicial. It has its Congress, its President, and its Supreme
Court: it makes its laws, it witnesses our actions in relation to the
laws, and finally it judges us.
First of all, conscience legislates. One needs only
to live to know that there is in each of us an interior Sinai, from
which is promulgated, amid the thunder and lightning of daily life, a
law telling us to do good and avoid evil. That interior voice fills us
with a sense of responsibility, reminding us, not that we must do certain things, but that we ought to do certain things, for the difference between a machine and a person is the difference between must and ought.
Without even being consulted, conscience plays its legislative role,
pronouncing some actions to be in themselves evil and unjust, and
others in themselves moral and good. Hence, when citizens fail to see a
relationship existing between a human law and the law of their own
conscience, they feel that they are free to disobey, and their
justifying cry is, “My conscience tells me it is wrong.”
Second, conscience not only is legislative, in the
sense that it lays down a law, but it is also executive, in the sense
that it witnesses the application of the law to actions. An imperfect
but helpful analogy is to be found in our own government. Congress
passes a law, then the president witnesses and approves it, thus
applying the law to the lives of citizens. In like manner, conscience
executes laws in the sense that it witnesses the fidelity of our
actions to the law. Aided by memory, it tells us the value of our
actions; tells us if we were total masters of ourselves; to the extent
to which passion, environment, force, and fury influence us; whether
our consequences were foreseen or unforeseen; shows us, as in a mirror,
the footsteps of all our actions; points its finger at the vestiges of
our decisions; comes to us as a true witness and says: “I was there; I
saw you do it. You had such and such an intention.” In the
administration of human justice the law can call together only those
witnesses who have know me externally but conscience as a witness
summons not only those who saw me, but summons also me who know myself. And whether I like it or not, I cannot lie to what it witnesses against me.
Finally, conscience not only lays down laws, not only
witnesses my obedience or disobedience to them, but it also judges me
accordingly. The breast of every person bears a silent court of
justice. Conscience is the judge, sitting in judgment, handing down
decisions with such authority as to admit of no appeal, for no one can
appeal a judgment that one brings against one’s self. That is why there
gather about the bar of conscience all the feelings and emotions
associated with right and wrong – joy and sorrow, peace and remorse,
self-approval and fear, praise and blame.
If I do wrong, it fills me with a sense of guilt from
which there is no escape, for if the inmost sanctuary of my being is
assaulted by the stern voice of this judge, I am driven out of myself
by myself. Whence, then, can I fly but to myself with the sickening
sense of guilt, remorse, and disgrace, which is the very hell of the
soul? If, on the contrary, conscience approves my action, then there
settles upon me, like the quiet of an evening dew, the joy that is a
stranger to the passing pleasures of sense. The world may call me
guilty, its courts may judge me criminal, its irons may weigh down my
flesh and bones like deep-sea anchors, but my soul builds a paradise
within, against the raging opposition without, and floods it with an
interior peace that the world cannot give and that the insults of the
world cannot take from me.
(excerpt from “The Moral Universe”)